That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him."
1 Corinthians 2:9
For the past few weeks I have been off and on an emotional rollercoaster. It has been an uncomfortable ride at times. I've struggled with finding the next step to take regarding work, ministry, and areas of my personal life, none of which seem to be in alignment with each other. It's been hard for me to find joy doing what I once loved. In the routine of my week, every day it felt as if I'd lost a piece of me. Everything seemed to be on repeat and the melody that once brighten my day had become a long drawn out, frustrating tune. I had become numb to everything around me and the desire to move forward was slowly fading away. I was longing for something new, but I didn't know what. I just wanted out of where I was. I wanted to stop dreaming. I just wanted solitude and peace of mind.
There were many days I sat in my car with a heavy heart and tears in my eyes. Deep down I wanted to just quit, but there was something deeper that encouraged me to keep going. Some days I had to give myself a pep talk and remind myself who I was in Christ and who He was in me, but honestly there were other days when I couldn't find the words to say. What is my purpose? What am I here for? These are questions that rang through my mind and of course I couldn't answer these questions, so I presented them to God. In my quiet time with Him, God often reveals sovereign secrets that keep me in awe of who is. He gives revelation regarding the things we tend to over look or take for granted on a daily basis. I am often left memorized by the wonders of His heart. Then there are those times when He says nothing. I will be honest, sometimes His silence causes me to panic just a little because it usually happens when I am at a fork in the road regarding a decision.
He doesn't leave us wondering because he lacks compassion or has better things to do. His silence doesn't mean that He is not there. An unanswered prayer doesn't mean that He lacks concern or feels that we are not worth the time. This all means that He is working things out for us and something in us and; it's all for our good. We often give up prematurely because it's uncomfortable. We often walk away to soon because it's not what we wanted or expected, but we must understand that God has a way of doing things that may not make sense in the moment to the human mind.
Isaiah 55:8-9 says “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts
This is a word that we must take a hold of as a reminder that God is there and he care and his plans for us are greater than we could every image or produce on our own. We me trust His leading and His timing. We may not know the complete details or have the definite of how it will all work out, just know that God does. His timing does not align with ours. Be assured that when we are right with God, all things will be set in order and put into motion according to His perfect will for our lives. He will plant the vision in our heart and He will tend to the dream as needed.
As He leads, trust and follow. As he instructs, obey. Seek Him first above all things and love Him with all of your heart. He knows our end from the beginning and His plans are good and perfect. He will surely complete the good work that He has started concerning you.
Heavenly Father, equip me with all that I need for doing your will. Work in me what is pleasing to you, through Jesus Christ. Help me to lay down my agenda and follow you. As seek you, let your goodness and mercy prevail in new ways concerning me. In Jesus' name, Amen.